Just had the weirdest thoughts a little while ago. As i was staring at San Isidro Labrador's image outside our barrio chapel, I started to think, would Callum david want to live a barn life? If ever he does i'd be most happy to open up my door (both our house and whatever door he wishes to enter) for him. One or a couple of times I'd live his life and i never really considered it a life. City lights, not at all my thing. If i was him i'd sell his spin gadgets and settle right where I am right now. In Entongalon with me.
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Callum David
The previous post was a mess, back-with-a-bang is not me at all. Maybe if you know me well you wouldn't wonder why.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Volcano
I needed to get back to blogging badly. I looked around my previous blog and I thought I'd simply resuscitate one of it back to life. So here it is.. my first posts.. for tonight?
Don't hold yourself like that
cause You'll hurt your knees
well I kissed your mouth, and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around
Volcanoes melt you down
And What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea
Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth, your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around
Volcanoes melt me down
What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask
What I give to you is just what I'm going through
This is nothing new, no, no just another phase of finding
what I really need is what makes me bleed
But like a new disease, Lord, she's still too young to treat
Volcanoes melt you down
She's still too young +what iam to you+you do not need+is not real
I kissed your mouth
You do not need me
I'm a nutcase lately, my thoughts are juggling over my barely-breathing relationship and my almost off-the-cliff career. And for the n'th time this I had to initiate an intervention. This'll be it.
*** note to self: this is just the first post and it barely says anything so do a lot more and try not to be cryptic and gibberish.
Friday, March 18, 2011
commitment you say.. and i say..
as i have learned a little while ago.. commitment is doing something you said you would do even after the mood on which you said you would do it has past.. and with this i try not to dwell on the fact that you are everything except this.. the committed spirit you once said you will be..
it was you who introduced me to the half step just before we transcend to love.. and that was commitment.. you explained to me in detail how a relationship works best if two persons make a point to not disregard that half step.. but then we were never really on the same flat form when we nod our heads and half consciously agreed on something that we had totally different perceptions about..
but then i say to myself.. your own sense of commitment will lift us to a place we both had planned to be.. and my own definition of the word will sustain us.. knowing that in this instance of disparity we remain true to whatever we believe is best for us.
it was you who introduced me to the half step just before we transcend to love.. and that was commitment.. you explained to me in detail how a relationship works best if two persons make a point to not disregard that half step.. but then we were never really on the same flat form when we nod our heads and half consciously agreed on something that we had totally different perceptions about..
but then i say to myself.. your own sense of commitment will lift us to a place we both had planned to be.. and my own definition of the word will sustain us.. knowing that in this instance of disparity we remain true to whatever we believe is best for us.
pushed to resign
26 hours of no sleep. i wait.. wait for you to finish all the things that you need to do. things that popped out of nowhere.. documents to send through courier.. store materials to deliver.. and property papers to be signed..
i try hard.. try hard not to burst.. i say to myself that somehow this is too much.. that i don't deserve this, but then i say to myself that the things i deserve will always be the things i choose for myself.. and somehow i choose you..
i try not to complain because i know.. what we have right now is more that what i initially bargained for..
but then you're pushing me.. pushing me to resign on that place that i was in.. being happily taken.. taken forgranted.
i try hard.. try hard not to burst.. i say to myself that somehow this is too much.. that i don't deserve this, but then i say to myself that the things i deserve will always be the things i choose for myself.. and somehow i choose you..
i try not to complain because i know.. what we have right now is more that what i initially bargained for..
but then you're pushing me.. pushing me to resign on that place that i was in.. being happily taken.. taken forgranted.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
running deep
time and time i get thoughts of how I played it and then i wanted to settle on a particular thought, that our story is an epic. a story of two heroes separated by distance but not by heart.
Monday, January 4, 2010
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